Never learned the Word No ( original poem 2002)

                                           

Mom went out to work one day

even though her daughter begged her to stay

Later the girl went to her room  and cried on her bed

you're nothing but a mistake is what her father had said

She wasn't an idiot or rejected

the real problem was that she was neglected

You see , her father had beaten her until she was blue

and her ABC's was really all that she knew

She looked at the door, as it slowly began to turn

And this particular thought made her stomach churn

She knew it was her father turning the door,

not only did he want a hug , but he wanted much more

Slowly her father entered and began caressing her leg

And shut up girl was all that he said

She smelt the alcohol lying on his breath

anything was better than this feeling- even death

The girl began to scream out in pain as loudly as she could

Although it appeared that her suffering was not understood

This has happened to her several times before

But it seems as though, her father came back for more

Her father finished up, and turned out the light

And simply replied "Oh yeah baby, don't let the bed bugs bite"

Crying uncontrollably, the girl curled up in bed

but was waken when her mother entered the room instead

Staring directly in her mothers eyes

the girl layed her head on her shoulder and began to cry

She wanted so desperately to be loved by them both

But she understood that her parents were not like most

her parent's love was something that she did not know

all because daddy never learned the word no

                                         -Tiffany Holden , 2002

 

* Unfortunately, this happens all so often to children, both men and women- will usually effects them over the entire course of their lifespan. As a child, you are unable to control how you are treated by your family. It is sad, but every person undergoes some type of hardship within their life that is out of their control. However , you have made it- if you had not, then you would not be reading this blog as we speak . Nevertheless, it is up to you how you cope with it as an adult.Join support groups and programs, begin involving yourself in church or sports, start journaling or engaging within extracurricular activities, apply for a gym membership to release your levels of aggression.Regardless of what you choose to do, do something positive. Remember, you have no control over what happened to you in the past a child,  but your future as an adult is exactly what you make it